all the calls bounce off the unemptied inbox stacked sallow yellow papers creep in sheafs beneath the door undivided attention absolute solitude are of utmost import at this stage much maintenance is needed to sustain this stasis this routine is demanding of my steadfastness of devoting time that i plait your matted hair to bind the slipping strands in place scraping behind your molars with this brittle copper screw the swapping of your shirt at intermittent intervals replacing the towels below the mattress catching seeping sap and greywater pooling stagnant amongst the recalcitrant box springs whimpering i no longer smell our room as much as i feel it worming underneath my collar viscous congealing beneath my nails for sustenance stale bread ground daily through your calcifying jaw an endless intravenous drip of sprite and battery acid blistering light may touch but a sliver of marred hardwood should the rays consume your skin gaunt flesh swelling requiring your careful rotation an inch counterclockwise every sixteen hours then entertainment consisting of your decomposing sweat soaked mid aughts skinemax podcasts about love island considering this diligence  inherently necessary means within your end begging eventual resurrection by this severe enough prompting sufficient pressing prodding a birdcage a fishhook an amputation a deadline there’s been enough lying prone already you were supposed to win the emmy by now the group chat is waiting and they’re livid